usa is a fascist police state

videos such as this of a female emory professor being brutalized and arrested by police for having the temerity to question their ‘authority’ as they were routinely arresting and brutalizing other anti-war protesters, and to add incredible insult to injury, then being charged with ‘assaulting an officer’ when in fact the opposite occurred, demonstrate without a doubt that the usa is a fascist state in which police power is flagrantly and routinely abused without any consequences whatsoever for the abusers. it is just plain evil. ‘america’ is sick and evil. the de facto state religion is zionism. the government and corporate mass media are totally complicit and corrupt. the media reports state that such protests 'turn violent'. they seek to convey the impression that the police are responding to violence, when in fact they are almost always initiating and perpetrating it. it's enough to make one sick. it’s as dystopian as anything orwell ever imagined.

https://www.commondreams.org/news/emory-protests-arrests

a foolish hero

the 20th anniversary of the death of pat tillman is almost upon us. there's a feature article on ESPN's website about it. if that name doesn't ring a bell, google it. i'll sum up why it might here:

tillman was an elite athlete, a star professional american football player in his prime when 9/11 happened. he turned down a multimillion dollar contract offer from his football team to enlist in the military and be sent to afghanistan, where he was killed, as it turned out, by 'friendly fire'. the military honchos lied about the circumstances of his death to cover up the culpability of higher ups in the chain of command who made grossly incompetent and callous decisions which endangered the lives of their men, for which pat tillman paid the ultimate price.

the ESPN article featured an interview with tillman's mother on this 20th anniversary of her son's death. here's one question that was posed with her answer to it:

How would you describe the way the military handled this and the way it treated your family for the last 20 years?

Oh, it's horrific. It's shameless. Not only did they lie to us, they lied to the whole country about it. If someone this high-profile and his family can be treated this way, then what are they doing with other families that don't have the voice? Nobody expects their leaders to do this. And of course it speaks to what is so concerning to Pete, that not only did this harm our family, in more ways than I can express here, but it harmed many of these soldiers.

The chain of command just threw it downwards. And a lot of these guys [in the platoon] have been harmed with PTSD, with moral injury, moral trauma. It's because they've been betrayed. They've been betrayed by their leaders, who don't have the courage to admit they made a mistake. And of course people forgive mistakes. You may be angry at first. You may question. You may be upset. You may beat on their chest, "How did you make this happen?" But eventually you come to terms with it and you're grateful that they told you the truth. But we can't say that about them. I'm still angry about it. I mean, there's no contrition. They've never apologized to us. They've never apologized to the soldiers that they gaslighted basically into thinking that this was all their fault. It's just lies upon lies upon lies. And they did it so tactically, so strategically.

keep in mind that this is on ESPN, the reigning king of sports journalism in america. it's very high profile. this interview was probably read by millions of sheeple. it's corporate establishment media, the very same media i've repeatedly railed against in the past for it's duplicitous role in our dystopia, as a 'ministry of truth', to use an orwellian phrase. yet even here, for anyone who reads beyond the headlines, evidence is revealed of our extreme dystopia, in this case in the form of official corruption and callous disregard for the lives of a public they purportedly serve and selflessly lead.

in spite of this, that public remains largely indifferent towards or ignorant of this particular aspect of dystopia. they'll still salute the flag and answer the patriotic call to 'serve their country', if and when that call comes.

there's no understanding sheeple. one might think they'd eventually wise up. one might also wonder when 'eventually' will happen, since it hasn't yet, in spite of centuries or millennia of such abuse of 'authority', the world over.

tillman has been described by many as an authentic hero. if that be the case, and i'm in no position to dispute it, if that be the case then i must piss in his heroic wheaties by observing that anyone willing to kill and be killed for their country as a patriotic duty is a brainwashed fool. i, as an unpatriotic coward, may be just a plain fool for saying so, but it is what i think, so help me.

https://www.espn.com/nfl/story/_/id/39954768/nfl-cardinals-tillman-afghanistan-9-11

the war u don't see

in this excellent documentary, australian journalist john pilger exposes the role of governments and lamestream media, working together, in promoting/propagandizing war.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mDuxFnn2RY

"on God's business"

on this easter sunday i think it appropriate to point out one of the many atrocities that the roman catholic church has perpetrated  it has much blood on it's hands. it's various 'crusades' have in fact been genocides.

some will claim that such an assertion is biased against the church, but i think it's well documented and reflective of well informed and unbiased opinion.

at the bottom is a link to the best website i've discovered that covers a crusade. this particular one took place in the south of france in the early 13th century, and was precipitated by a rebellion against catholic doctrine and corruption. it involved wholesale slaughter of civilians (perhaps more than a million of them) by the crusaders,  which considering the much lower population back then, makes it an even more 'impressive' wholesale slaughter in terms of percent. here's a quote regarding this crusade from the first page of the website:

It was a formal crusade in the full sense of the word - preached and directed by the papacy, and offering participants the remission of sins and an assured place in heaven. The Crusaders regarded themselves as being "on God's business" and referred to themselves as "pilgrims".

below is a brief description of what this 'crusade' entailed from the same page:

Terror tactics included mass indiscriminate slaughter as at Béziers and Marmande (and planned for Toulouse), various attrocities as at Bram and Lavaur, and mass burnings as at Minerve, Lavaur, Les casses and Montsegur.

https://www.cathar.info/cathar_wars.htm

sex work

'sex work' is a distasteful term to me. it implies that what a 'sex worker' does is unpleasant, distasteful. i prefer to look at the practice of buying or selling sexual favors as something which when engaged in freely, not under duress, is mutually agreeable and rewarding. i also think it's natural and nothing to be ashamed of, no reason to be stigmatized or criminalized. quite the contrary.

getting paid or rewarded for providing sexual pleasure and fulfillment to another is good. paying or rewarding someone for providing sexual pleasure and fulfillment is good. at it's best, 'sex work' isn't work at all. there may be an imbalance of pleasure, an imbalance of passion, but just because the provider receives less pleasure and fulfillment, they can still derive pleasure and fulfillment in this 'work'. in that case it's literally and figuratively a labor of love.

shame and fear

certain terms for parts of female genitalia are derived from words ( in latin or some other ancient language? ) meaning basically 'parts to be ashamed of''.

i've become vehemently anti-christian as i've come to understand christianity's basic precepts or dogmas better, and what purpose might be served by them. for example, nothing is more central to christian 'faith' than the assertion of human 'sinfulness', with 'sin' being an offense to god. basically, this dogma is that humans are either inherently bad or we exercise our 'free will' so badly that we offend god. for this, we ought to be ashamed. if we aren't, there's something wrong with us. if we aren't, we can't truly repent or be forgiven. and that's a huge problem, because all talk aside of the christian god being 'loving', this is a god u don't want to be opposed to or alienated from. this is a judgmental and punitive god. this is a god to fear. eternal damnation is a fate infinitely worse than death. it's infinitely worse than anything we can imagine. christianity is a faith of ultimate shame and fear.

shame and fear aren't unique to christianity. they're probably a key component to all or most civilized religions, by design. better minds than mine have concluded that modern religion is a tool of social control, the 'opiate of the masses'. shame and fear diminish our sense of self, or self esteem. faith in the claims or decrees of  'authority' empower 'authority' and disempower us.

religion has long been a tool used by elites. religion and 'authority' go hand in hand.

in christianity the idea or definition of sin is often closely aligned with the idea that unfettered desire or passion is offensive to god, something to be ashamed of, something to be afraid of, something to be suppressed. this is why genitalia related terms like 'pudendum'  have shameful connotations. they represent body parts which arouse erotic passion. this induced dogmatic puritanical shame and fear are why we're so repressed. neurotic, hypocritical. confused. conflicted. and often pathologically destructive when it comes to 'romance'.

"Once you're a Catholic, you're always a Catholic—in terms of your feelings of guilt and remorse and whether you've sinned or not. Sometimes I'm wracked with guilt when I needn't be, and that, to me, is left over from my Catholic upbringing. Because in Catholicism you are born a sinner and you are a sinner all of your life. No matter how you try to get away from it, the sin is within you all the time."   -madonna

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Like_a_Prayer_(song)#Background_and_inspiration

social isolation in america

I'm not very serious about moving to a spanish speaking country like mexico or costa rica because if i was, i'd be trying to learn the language. I'm not because i don't have much aptitude for it and because therefore it seems like drudgery, plus i'm very uncertain re. whether i surreally want to leave the u.s.. 

i have been watching a few videos on youtube about expat life in costa rica and one of the things that's struck me is how friendly the natives apparently are there. To me, this is in marked contrast to my experience of america, but that's probably due in part to my own internal alienation.

the other night i watched part of a sensationalist true story, the kind that corporate lamestream tv seems to love, no doubt in part because sensational true stories are attention grabbers (also, the ones the tv networks like to showcase involve individuals behaving atrociously, criminally, involving the police, who by contrast appear to be the 'good guys', and one thing i've become hyper- aware of since becoming a 'conspiracy theorist' is that corporate media appears to bend over backwards to portray law enforcement in a positive light, while minimizing and rationalizing away their own atrocious abuses of power).

this story involved a very religious mormon mother who had gained an internet following for the videos she posted advocating 'tough love' parenting. Turns out she was horribly abusing her 2 youngest children, apparently in an attempt in her sick mind to keep them away from 'evil' or to discipline them. She was keeping them tied up, virtual prisoners in their own home, with inadequate food and water. Somehow her 12 year old son escaped and emaciated, went over and rang the doorbell of a neighbor.

this neighbor had surveillance camera by his door which recorded audio, so one could hear the interaction between him and the boy who sought his help. The boy meekly asked if he would do a couple of favors for him. After a brief pause, this neighbor, a grown man, replied with apparent annoyance 'what do u want'?.

to me, this exchange is rather emblematic of how socially isolated and consequently unempathetic americans, or at least many of us, have become towards one another. Here's this kid in rather obvious distress asking for help and his neighbor is not immediately sympathetic, but rather openly hostile.

i've become very used to being alone. in a way i like it because i've attained the view that my fellow americans (and probably, by extension, sheeple in general) are generally quite stupid and unrelatable to me, But in another deeper way, this way of life is pretty lonely and unsatisfying. This makes me wonder if i might fare better socially outside the u.s., but i'm also inclined to think that i probably won't, and that i would in fact miss this american culture where it's quite normal and ok to not know one's neighbors.

i'd love to know what's your take on this issue?

on motherhood and 'pro-life' religion

I've been thinking a bit about my troubled nephew. i'm pretty sure most if not all of his troubles stem from growing up a lone child in a single parent household in a society which doesn't promote communal childcare with a mother who didn't seem to know how to nurture, or to be more blunt, who didn't seem to love him.

i think the same applies to me somewhat, although i had 2 parents. neither of them seemed to take much interest in me. plus back in the 50s i guess parents in western societies or at least here in the u.s. were encouraged to be rather negligent regarding infant needs, as it was thought they'd spoil their child if they responded to it's cries too much. although i can't recall being an infant it's easy to imagine that i wasn't held or nurtured nearly enough, considering the way my parents treated me when i was older. i've read from multiple sources that infancy is a critical time of development and that it's especially important for infants to be held a lot and be given oodles of attention/love.

this is something 'pro-lifers' don't seem to get at all when they insist that women who get pregnant but don't want to carry the child to term for whatever reason be forced to. if a woman doesn't want to become a mother she's probably not going to be a good one. and the child is going to absorb her lack of attachment and suffer for it and probably be affected for the rest of it;s life, adversely.

similarly they don't seem to get that life itself can become burdensome or tortuous, especially for those with a terminal illness like cancer. this makes me hate and not understand them. i can only think of them as dogmatic, brainwashed. i especially hate the catholic church and other religious sects which promote the 'pro-life' view. i think of them as sick and evil, don't u?

also, regarding the catholic church and other puritanical religious sects, i've long reached the conclusion that with regards to human sexuality, their 'morality' is designed to minimize pleasure and maximize reproductive consequences, which i regard as just plain stupidcrazy, unless one takes into consideration the conspiratorial view that the church's function isn't to promote human well being, but rather to promote a sort of deadened human spirit which is more amenable to being controlled and exploited by 'authority'. and as u ought to well know by now, i am a 'conspiracy theorist'!

boner pills

 Now that i'm 65, most days my libido is practically gone. beautiful young girl/women who used to knock me for a loop now only impress me. they don't arouse me like they used to. no doubt my testosterone levels have crashed from what they were decades ago. i can still have orgasms once or twice a week; 40 years ago it was once or twice daily.

i'm a bit amused and agitated by the drugs and pills advertised to aging men like me to artificially enhance or prolong our sex lives. 'low t' isn't a disease, it's a fact of life the older one gets. and why take a pill to get an erection if one isn't aroused enough for it to occur naturally? i don't get it. but, i don't get a lot of things my fellow humans, or at least many of them, do, say, and believe. don't get them at all. it's like we're different species or inhabiting different worlds.

i think sex is best when one's young. that's another thing that bothers me about boner pills and drugs designed to artificially enhance male libido as men age. it seems to me my society is adamantly opposed to 'under age' youth having sex (especially with 'adults'). no doubt this includes lots of old men who spend lots of money in a vain attempt to hold on to youth. same can be said for old women who spend lots on surgery or other things to look younger.

when it comes to sex it seems my society has it backwards. i say let the children play, and let us old folks age with grace and dignity. and by god or whatever, let's celebrate sexuality throughout our short lives, rather than stigmatize and criminalize consensual behavior (and not deny the ability to consent to youth).

how the left is destroyed globally

 as usual, abby rules. in this video she interviews vincent bevins about his book THE JAKARTA METHOD: WASHINGTON'S ANTICOMMUNIST CRUSADE AND THE MASS MURDER PROGRAM THAT SHAPED OUR WORLD and allows him ample freedom to discuss some of the dirty details regarding how communism was suppressed in the 20th century and is still being today. bevins knowledge of his subject is impressive indeed. on an even playing field of ideas capitalism loses. only via ruthless violent deceitful repression does it win.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=up3-lOiO9L8

eyewitness truth in gaza hospitals

 once again abby martin tells it like it is, this time with the help of a heroic doctor

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REnN_dLtrLA

crazy courage

a 25 year old man who was in the u.s. air force recently self immolated outside the israeli embassy. aaron bushnell. i'll remember aaron. how calm, articulate, and resolute he was. an act of crazy courage of a kind i've never had.

i've thought from time to time of the morality of self sacrifice as an act of protest or a desperate attempt to draw attention to issues like dystopia and doom. but that takes some crazy courage, i'm too addicted to staying alive, and it's so so easy to rationalize such thoughts away. easy and convenient.

this is an outstanding discussion! it highlights the courage, compassion, and selfless determination of aaron bushnell without losing sight of the just cause he died for:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATQl2G14pEQ

politically hopeless and homeless

 i just composed the following as an email to send to my local political group, but decided not to send it, rather just post it here (where it may never be read by anyone but me):

What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

-lyric from radiohead song

i unregistered to vote a few months ago, partly due to disaffection with steubengreens, mostly due to disaffection with american politics and an overwhelming sense that my views are too fringe to matter, that american democracy is a complete farce; that 'the will of the people (sheeple)' doesn't matter, that the only way it is ever in accord with the actions of 'our' government is due to heavy, non-stop propagandizing by said government and the lamestream media, both of whom are obviously under centralized control to serve an 'elite' agenda which can only be said to benefit a few in the short term and absolutely no one in the long term.

when i first enrolled in the party 24 years ago i was hopeful that i had found a political home (and a cultural/social one). i thought my views were more or less in complete sync with the party's '10 key values' (and still do). but over time little disagreements came to the fore which centered around what might be said to be my lack of faith that any good would come from this engagement, as it became increasingly clear that my political despair was at odds with the party's overt optimism that it could/would prevail electorally. then my only reason to continue to associate with it was completely personal (shersonal) as i hoped to develop relationships based on mutual political alienation, commiserative relationships which might naturally lead to satisfying shersonal relationships (misery loves company).

this world (our world?) baffles me politically and elsewise. i still harbor some forlorn hope that this bafflement can be the basis of commiserative relationships. i may be politically impotent but must i be alone too?

in my harsh opinion our situation is akin to that of an individual faced with a diagnosis of terminal disease with no surrealistic hope of survival. our species is hopelessly corrupt and flawed, completely unable or unwilling to come to terms with the fact that our culture is ecocidal and insane and that as a result our own self induced extinction looms on the horizon.

facing such a diagnosis/fate isn't the end of life, so the question remains, how should i (we?) spend it's remainder? i for one wish to do so as free from deceit and delusion as possible, meaning without false hope or 'hopium', not wasting any more precious time pursuing hopeless, fruitless political endeavors like engaging in formal political processes with sheeple who are either lying to themselves or to me regarding all the good things they'll do once elected and in power.  surreal political power resides not with the sheeple but with a shadowy elite which operates as a criminal organization outside of all legal consequences. politicians who are elected must either dance to their tune or face erasure, as when jfk was assassinated, or when in the u.k. jeremy corbin was politically assassinated with trumped up claims of being anti-semitic for being a critic of israel (and an advocate of people power and sane public policies).

in conclusion i feel alienated from a green party which is unable or unwilling to face such harsh truths and to pivot away from dogmatic hopium in favor of realistic hope of commiserating with compatible souls to minimize our existential angst and maximize whatever shersonal solace can be derived from such companionship.

Creep - Radiohead (Lyrics)

Creep - Radiohead (Lyrics)

the story of my dystopian and doomed life

 dream this a.m.:   in this sleeping dream i am a young man and i have a very beautiful young girlfriend. This is ideal except for one major problem i'm well aware of and can't deny: i'm smart but i'm still a loser because i'm a social misfit who will never change, never be truly popular or successful. I know this deep in my bones so i decide to break up with my wonderful beautiful girlfriend who is very enamored with me. As i do so i have a very heavy heart, and of course she is a little upset with me, but i know it must be done. Afterwards while i'm a little sad i'm also pleased with myself because i know that by facing this heartache squarely and promptly, i'm saving us both more heartache later, for the breakup is inevitable, and the sooner the better, before we become further invested (in love) in each other. (end of dream)

this is basically the story of my (love) life now (except that i'm no longer young). It's the story of it going back for decades, ever since i've been this aware of myself, my world, and my place in it. It's a shersonal tragedy, but of course it pales with the tragedy that is our dystopian and doomed world. I see the 2 as linked now, for to be successful, i must save our world from it's tragic fate. In doing so i would save myself from my own tragic fate, but neither can be done!

'a sick society'

 MLK Jr. would have been 95 yesterday. He only made it to 39.

On p. 117 of Coretta Scott King's autobiography, she wrote about the reaction her husband had to the news of JFK's assassination in 1963, less than 4 and 1/2 years before he met the same fate. I'm paraphrasing slightly here: 'he was strangely silent for a while. then he spoke: 'this is what's going to happen to me... this is a sick society''

Unfortunately, he was right on both counts. In dystopia it doesn't pay to be great and courageous. 

I'm glad dr. king's been honored with his own american holiday. I wish the truth about his assassination would become so widely known that the official narrative would be discarded, and the establishment's hypocrisy and mendacity fully revealed. I won't be holding my breath waiting for that to happen!

https://www.google.com/search?q=coretta+scott+king%27s+autobiography&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

https://dystopiananddoomed.blogspot.com/search?q=william+f+pepper

the war against sheeple

Every so often it's a good idea for me to explain why i often prefer using the term 'sheeple' instead of people. I began doing this relatively late in my life after an extensive self education led me to the conclusion that civilized humans have been domesticated or tamed for much the same reason we have tamed many other beings, both plant and animal: to better control and exploit them. In the case of humans, exploitation is the result of the vast wealth that is created by civilization (which itself is the result of our having domesticated other species, and transformed most former wilderness areas into profitable 'real estate', such as farm land). This wealth led to the creation of different classes, which in simplest terms might be termed the working class ( the vast majority of sheeple on earth), who do the vast majority of the labor which creates the wealth, and the ownership or ruling class, a small minority who benefit from and control the vast majority of wealth (and the political power that goes with it).

I love wikispooks because although it's information isn't voluminous, it's condensed and very to the point, as revealed by many of the quotes it cites, like this one, from the article on ex-CIA chief and JFK nemesis allen dulles:

 "Dulles’s job, simply put, was to hijack the US government to benefit the wealthy."

https://wikispooks.com/wiki/Allen_Dulles

As i've written previously here, the purpose of the CIA and other 'intelligence agencies' of capitalist 'western democracies' has been to act as a mafia for capitalism, not just in the western hemisphere but all over the world. In doing so they resort to all sorts of secret illegal activities including political assassinations, the fomenting of coups d'etats, and the control of lamestream media which control public opinion. Here in the USA like everyone i've been propagandized my whole life to fear and despise communism. Many of the wars my government has fought or supported have been for this overt purpose (fighting communism). The CIA controlled lamestream media is often used to promote this idea. 'Fighting communism' is code for being opposed to political movements which seek to empower the working class, or the vast majority of sheeple around the world. 'Fighting communism' is in fact a war against sheeple!

social alienation and isolation (loneliness)

What i can recall of a dream i had this a.m.: i'm older and all alone as a university student.  At some point while on campus attending classes i become aware that i'm only wearing underpants. Try as i might, i can't recall where or why i shed my other clothes, so i don't know where to look for them, even as i become very self conscious. Strangely, nobody seems to notice or care until finally i meet 3 young male students, all happy and friends with whom i'm an outsider, who tell me i've been called to report to a room upstairs because of my situation. I'm not sure where this is or who to report to, as i leave them, feeling ever more alone and out of place.

Strange dream, huh? just like all dreams. This one seems to have a pretty clear meaning, or at least somewhat clear, given my actual life circumstances: i'm a loner with no close friends or lovers who feels very socially alienated and isolated. I think there must be something wrong with me, but i don't know what it is or have much of a clue how to find out, beyond the notion that psychedelic therapy might be very helpful and revealing.

This is on my mind a lot. It might be my greatest shersonal issue. I've seen it repeatedly reported that loneliness is a major health risk factor for premature death, as bad as being a smoker or obese. I worry that it's killing me or will kill me, not to mention how it greatly detracts from life quality. I desperately wish to have friends and not be so alienated, but it seems to be my lot in life in this dystopian world.