Anti-Communism: America's Unofficial Religion

 if u've ever wondered why the political left and it's ideas are so unpopular in america, this video is a good beginning to understanding how the capitalist establishment, via the power of the government, has systemically persecuted and suppressed leftist individuals and groups. another one from abby martin:

 Anti-Communism: America's Unofficial Religion - YouTube

why Psychedelics are suppressed

The following is quoted from the bottom of page 450 and top of page 451 of Dennis McKenna's memoir THE BROTHERHOOD OF THE SCREAMING ABYSS 

'Psychedelics are not suppressed because they are dangerous to users; they're suppressed because they provoke unconventional thought, which threatens any number of elites and institutions that would rather do our thinking for us... Mushrooms have a way of inoculating the mind against the kind of thought control the prevailing order in any age needs to sustain itself. I'm not naively suggesting that the work of building a better world stops with the psychedelic experience. But it could be where it begins, or is renewed-in the moment of freedom when one glimpses the transient nature of reality and its ever-present potential for change.'

All by myself

Hard to be sure

Sometimes I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself, don't wanna be
All by myself, anymore
All by myself, don't wanna live
All by myself, anymore

lyrics from a 1975 eric carmen song

i don't know why my copy and paste computer function sometimes leaves a space between lines that shouldn't be there, like in the lyrics above. sorry.

these lyrics apply to me. it's hard having no one to be authentic with, to feel and have a solid healthy respectful and trusting relationship. to have a shared worldview in common, forming the basis for such bonds. to be a part of a community, rather than a spiritual outcast living on the margins of society, a profoundly sick society that is dystopian and doomed. a society that scoffs at (the very rare) cassandras like me, and will continue to do so until the feces hits the fan, by which time it will be far too late to heed our warnings.

getting back on topic, i lack social ability, or sociability. i think this is the primary reason i'm all by myself. i don't know if anyone or anything can fix this, but i think if anything can, it's likely consciousness expanding drug(s), which is why i'm keen to experiment carefully with them.

Emperor Of Hemp

Great documentary about jack herer, the 'emperor of hemp' and a true american hero. It shows the absolute ludicrousness of criminalizing a plant which has been of great value to humanity for thousands of years and which has many different uses.

Jack Herer - Emperor Of Hemp

comfortably numb

the title of this pink floyd song describes what my life has become, as i've now long been aware that our world is dystopian and doomed, and that the only theoretical salvation from this unsavory fate lies in taking on the seemingly quixotic and hopeless task of confronting america's (and presumably the world's) greatest flaw: the hegemony or dominance of dogmatism in our lives. this dogmatism is of course rooted in our dominant religion(s), in which older generations indoctrinate their youth, as they themselves were indoctrinated, to have 'faith' in utter nonsense.

perhaps if this seemingly impossible task is accomplished successfully, so that sheeple en masse relinquish 'faith' in favor of seeing surreality through the lens of sober science, we will finally come to grips with the fact that our current culture is insane, destroying the ecosphere upon which our lives and the lives of future generations must depend upon for survival.

in trying to do this and failing, i've given it much thought and surrealized that it can't be done without profoundly disrupting the existing social order, which is to say just about everyone's life, and that this disruption must begin with me.

naturally i've been exceedingly reluctant to commit to such a radical change, because while my life may be unfulfilling, at least it's comfortable and affords the illusion (usually) that all is well for the time being. but that may be about to change a week from now if things go according to plan, as i will ingest the psychedelic drug psilocybin, which could shake me out of this unhappy comfort zone and force me to confront what i've long been avoiding.

i wish the lyrics of the song were more applicable to this predicament, but with a little creativity i can try to make them so, in that the fleeting glimpse i caught out of the corner of my eye when i was yet a child was of a harmonious sensible sustainable (or durable) world that might yet exist, if only we can make it so.

When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
I have become comfortably numb

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrOQC-zEog

Before the Dark

awesome poem from xray mike: a few excerpts:

Each day a fresh transgression, fresh offense.
Each night we swore we’d face the dawning day.
The outrage dulled—too endless, too immense.
We learned to live with it. We looked away.

It happened slow, then fast, then all at once.
We watched it like a dream we couldn’t break.
Many warned, marched, and shouted out for months.
They saw the flood yet couldn’t make us wake.

The truth is simple, and the truth is cold:
Those who could stop it, did as they were told.

https://collapseofindustrialcivilization.com/2026/04/12/before-the-dark/

more straight (and impassioned) talk from michael parenti

this guy is just great. these talks are 30 some years old, and just as relevant today as then.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FNOm8hY1QU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9Zkw2oUWlY