what friends?

the TED talk i posted by dr. james o'keefe a couple days ago led me to seeking more wisdom from that man. this led to finding the video linked below which stresses the importance of having an enjoyable and fulfilling social life, titled GO OUT AND PLAY WITH YOUR FRIENDS. this advice isn't new, as i've read from multiple sources that the lack of a satisfying social life is a major health liability, as bad as being a smoker or an out of shape couch potato in terms of life longevity.

i have no friends to pal around with or confide in. i've never had such friends. i want them but it seems i can't have them, for a number of reasons. the main one now might be a lack of compatibility and my pickiness, my perception that most sheeple are too stupidcrazy.

i hate 'conservative' views, dogmatic puritanical 'faith' and 'morality'. i see how much damage they do to individuals and to society and to the ecology. they pretty much are responsible for our being dystopian and doomed imo (in my opinion [i don't use the much more popular and well known acronym imho because i like to be honest, and my opinions aren't generally humble]).

i want companionship that matches my intelligence, knowledge, and sanity. it seems to be damned near impossible to find.

i'm being very open and honest here thanks in part to knowing nobody reads this blog, so if i'm coming across as conceited or too judgmental, who will take note?

perhaps i'm too judgmental, too picky about companions.

or maybe i'm not very likable or attractive to others as a companion, regardless of what i think of them. at any rate, no one's clamoring to be my friend, my confidante, my pal, my companion; nor do i know anyone who i'd love to hang with more. this is a problem i wish i understood better, so that i might either accept it better or do something about. it sure would be nice to have friends (and lovers!).

on further reflection, i think my society/culture is quite repressive, a great barrier to public authenticity. perhaps if i could be more authentic/spontaneous publicly, i'd be more popular, have more friends.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPz5_esb2ZM