to no one for nothing!??

 the title of this means this writing may be to no one (unread) for nothing (what's the point of doing it if no one else ever reads it?).

i'm deeply closeted in my worldview and it's basis. i've tried my best to share it with a few select small groups (a pair of local progessive groups with a few dozen email contacts) and individuals, by among other things providing them with a link to this blog with an invitation to check it out and provide feedback regarding their thoughts on doing so. and i've tried to do so with some sheeple i've been close to, like family. in no instance that i'm aware of has anyone taken me up on this offer. no one has encouraged or praised me (except for a few from a doomer blog i used to be involved with, whose relatively few participants were scattered all over the english speaking world, so none that were near me).

i do not feel free to share my views on important matters / issues because they're so very out of sync with my fellow americans across just about the whole political spectrum. 

there was a national protest this weekend against the horrible policies of wannabe dictator trump, which included several hundred locals. i'm quite friendly with one of them; i walk her dog regularly as she can't. we talk politics a bit. we're in agreement in hating trump, but beyond that, i have to keep my mouth shut around her, because she's a very moderate democrat who thinks genocide joe biden (she would never call him that) was an 'excellent president'. she likes to listen to very lamestream news sources like cnn because she thinks it's quite fair and balanced. and of course she's a christian, a catholic of all things, so she's about as far from being a radical as one can get. i could have gone with her to be a part of the anti-trump protest but i don't like being overtly aligned with sheeple whose views i find ridiculous if not repulsive.

the political views of americans in general are ridiculous and repulsive. how can one say this publicly, especially in an area like mine with lots of 'conservatives' of the ilk that think: 'america: love it or leave it!'?

i feel so frustrated, isolated. like i was born into this nightmarish dystopia which i should resist but feel i can't, think it would be foolish, the situation is hopeless, the ignorance and stupidity of the public, in conjunction with how evil, mendacious, and ruthless tptb are (who are largely responsible for misleading the sheeplike public who can't think for themselves) makes it so. i feel isolated in feeling so hopeless. i think i'm virtually alone in my area in my dystopian and doomed worldview, in my utter hatred and contempt for this dystopia i'm enmeshed in. i think about leaving the usa in hope of living in a saner, less dystopian place, but i fear such a place may not exist. or at the very least, that while some other places might be better, they can't be all that much better, given our common humanity and foibles.

MY OWN LITTLE PROTEST: today on a whim (i'd often considered doing so) i visited a cousin who i used to be close to, an older cousin who was very good to me when i was a child. after my own political and philosophical maturation, and after living away from family for a few years, on my return i now saw them in an entirely new and unflattering light. this particular cousin was or had become a right wing christian who's now a very 'conservative' 'pro-life' trump supporter. i visited him to give him 'a piece of my mind'. it didn't take long, as i knew it wouldn't, since we see eye to eye on nothing.

too much trivia?!

 i have a potentially useful bit to share. it's taken almost 6 decades for me to learn that it's a lot easier (also painless) clipping toenails than it is cutting them. i imagine mine are normal in that they've thickened with age, making them very resistant to cutting with scissors (and a bit painful sometimes), last time i cut them i used toenail clippers instead, which made the job a relative breeze.

funny isn't it that such simple basic useful (if trivial) knowledge could have evaded me, a relatively intelligent and curious soul, for so long. i figure if it evaded me, maybe it has u too.. i've lived alone a great majority of my adult life. spent most of my time alone. such social isolation probably precludes learning much similar useful trivia. a topic little thought of or discussed is how different modern social life is from our prehistoric ancestors whose very survival depended upon being part of very inter-dependent, communicative, and cooperative small groups. this radical change in social life no doubt has much to do with the prevalence of mental illness, depression, and loneliness modern civilized humans experience. i'm fortunate in having been able to adapt well to my isolation. i tend to prefer it now, particularly as i've learned more and my opinion of humanity has taken a dive.

this part may be too much trivia. curious to learn how often i cut my fingernails, i marked my calendar last time i cut them, 23 days ago. just noticed today they're getting long enough to trim. so i guess i do so about every 4 weeks. estimated growth these 23 days: about 2 mm, or 1/12 of an inch!